Recently I had a feeling that time was an invalid concept.
I was on a plane to Japan a few months ago and watched the movie Inception.
No thoughts about dreams, but afterwards I got up to go to the bathroom and had a flooding of awareness, coupled with word’s I’d heard Paul say about time.
I had a strong feeling that the linear nature of time wasn’t real.
More interesting, I had a clear awareness of a different way of connecting experiences without needing a time concept. Then came a realisation that I was taught to think in these terms of time – there was a nefarious feel to that last realisation…
Since then, I get flashes of memory of this feeling. Occasionally I find myself seeing events in time (either backward in the past or future events) as placing balls into a flat landscape of holes… like time is a place not a… well… point in linear time. As well as that, I am now quite often feeling that time is an attribute attached to things – like a thing has colour, has shape, it has “time”
Most exciting of all is that I have a strong sense that comes to me often that the past fills itself in and becomes “the past” after I put my attention to it. This last part is the hardest for me to put in words.
If I was to give it go, I’d say, when I make a thought or decision, the past re-orients around me to make that logically and linearly the case… as if I’m an impromptu actor on a stage and I have a cast of many people who listen to what I say to the audience and quickly change the stage to match what I’m acting out.
It’s freaky, but I’m not freaked out. I’m enjoying this and seeing where it will take me.
Matthew
Ps. I resisted the urge to put “” everywhere. I also Am aware that even using past and future tense words are fallacious but our language is built this belief and I feel like typing this is the best way I can both express it, and get close to it again.
